Audrey Mestre

August 11, 1974 - October 12th, 2002
This web page is in memory of our beloved Audrey Mestre, a great freediver and an even greater person...
Audrey, you will always be in our thoughts and in our hearts.
We love you!

October 12, 2022

Hello my sweetheart,

Twenty years ago, twenty years since you left us, while trying to break a record in the Dominican Republic. We had spent some time the day before, talking on the phone, both of us getting ready for the upcoming New Year's Eve celebrations. The future was in front of you, you still had so many things to do, so many projects to achieve and everything changed, everything collapsed, you went to join this world of the sea that you loved so much and left us, us who love you much.

I keep talking to you, to share with you, my joys, my pleasures, my anxieties, my uncertainties, my disappointments, my projects. My life has become a chaotic road, sometimes I am happy as a mountain climber who manages to climb to the top of a mountain, and other times I am like a miner trapped deep in the mine. I find it difficult to manage my emotions to stabilize them. I wish I had the strength of character you had to face the tests that life throws at us. In twenty years I have failed to control my feelings, my thoughts, to make them mine. Everything revolves around you, your spiritual presence, but above all your absence. Tears keep flowing just imagining how our life could have been, if... If you were still here, among us, if we could still hug you, kiss you, talk to you, see you, touch you, listen to you say, "Hi mom, it's me, Audrey, what are you doing right now?" "Well, I was just thinking of you." I THINK OF YOU.

I feel you close to us and so far away at the same time. I love you dear. I suffer along with all parents who lose a child, regardless of the circumstances. I live their drama, I live their pain, because I know what awaits them. You never fully recover from the loss of a child.

I don't want to end this letter on a sad note, so I'll just tell you that I thank you for all the happiness and joy you have given us, for being such an admirable and loving daughter. I love you my love, you are still my beloved girl.

I send you many kisses full of love.

Your mom